I treat ME so well. ♥

Yesterday was day one, of disconnecting from bbm. I must say, it was the greatest idea I've ever had. I accomplished a lot in such a short time span, and wasn't sucked into the realm of walking and bbming.

I did a little shopping. I treated myself, because with everything I'm going through, I deserve it. The issue has never been in me treating myself, because I've always treated me damn good. I've just accepted mediocrity when it came to how others treated me. But, $300 dollars later, too many thoughts of the past, and now we have this post.

I treat ME so well. Seriously I do, which means I cannot be a contradiction on how others treat me. I'm single, and happily single right now. This in itself is new (another posting all together) and I love it. I'm getting to know myself, and appreciating how great I've always been. I make mistakes, but I'm loyal. I love hard, and as well as I treat myself, I treat whoever I love.

So what am I saying? If, and when the time comes, the guy would have to be someone who treats me as well as I do, if not better. I write, and he has to be someone who's truly interested in what I've got to say. For instance, I've been having simple conversations with one guy, and do I feel it to be going anywhere? I can't say. I honestly can't even say it I want it to. He's in New York, and I'm not. That in itself is hard. Not hard for me, because I'm celibate, not interested in a lot of things I used to be interested in, but more so because he's a guy. My trust for men is out the window. Which is why I've chosen not to become serious with anyone. I can't. I physically, and emotionally, am not intact to. I want so much more then I've ever wanted, and because it's so new to me, I'm still learning.

In the mean time, I'll continue to splurge on me, write more, read more, and just enjoy life more. I'm not settling for anything less then what I deserve anymore. I can't.

Suspense now raised one of your eyebrows
You asked me if there's someone else
I replied yes hell yes

You asked if it's another man I said NO
You laughed and say is it a woman I say YES
Surprisingly you ask me for honey's name

And her name is me
And she loves me more than you'll ever know
And I finally see that
Loving you and loving me just don't seem to work at all
So patiently
She's waiting on me to tell you that she needs love
And to choose between you two
Boy you know if I have to choose I choose me

-- Me by Tamia.

And she told me to tell you to never to hurt me again
Cause if you haven't heard she's a bad chick
Even though I haven't been no

I haven't been, but guess what? I do love me, and I'm going to treat me better then I have in the past. She, Me, WE deserve it.