Happily Disconnecting, From A Socially Connected World.

So, as of 8 am this morning, I officially deleted my Blackberry Messenger. (BBM) WHY? Well I finally, prior to doing this, let's say from august, to middle of September, I went without a phone. At first, it was hard, but after the initial day, it was the most liberating experience ever. I didn't have to worry about gossip, or hearing from someone I didn't want to, but even more then anything, I finally was able to breathe, and not feel so socially connected. Yet, now, here I am, and that liberating feeling I experienced, I completely threw out the window, when my phone finally returned in my life. I became so glued to it. I was so wrapped up with catching up with everyone via bbm, twitter, facebook, etc that I was losing sight on what was truly important.

I'm sick && tired of using technology I am. I've grown to hate how easily accessible I've become. I get the same three phone calls a day, yet via bbm I have at least 11 conversations a day (w/ 11 diff ppl). So it just doesn't add up. So I deleted it. Partly because I miss when a phone, was a phone. It's not sad that 2 out of the 3 calls are from my mom, and dad, because I know that even when everyone is against me, their not. It's also not sad that the one guy, I hate, and love is the third call.I appreciate him, together or not together, he's a great friend. My parent's don't contact me in such impulsive, and impersonal ways such as bbm. They actually take the time out their day, to pick up the phone to see how I'm doing. That's what's important. When you're glued to your phone, it's so easy to scroll over a name and send a msg via bbm. It takes no time out your day. In fact, you can be doing a million different things, while you're sending this message. I just don't want it anymore. I'm at a stage, where I've noticed who needs to be in my life, and I'm also still filtering out all the excess dirt, that I haven't removed yet.

Send a N*gga a text message.I miss text messages. Their fun, their cute, and they don't have the little r/d sign when I've read, or delivered. Call me old fashioned, but when you know someones read your message, you sit and wait, for their response. Well depending on who it's from. I hate that. If I want to ignore you, or vice versa, I should be, and you should be allowed to. I shouldn't know, and you shouldn't have to feel obligated to write back, because you know that I know you've seen it. I miss texts, because I know that you were truly thinking of me when you sent it. It's not as wonderful as a phone call, but it's definitely more appreciated.

So, yes, I deleted my bbm, and am taking more time to focus on what's important. I still speak to all of my friends, and none of those conversations have taken place via bbm. I want to spend more time living,rather then being so glued to my phone. I will still get the same three calls a day. (my dad has already called for the day) Only maybe, because of this, it will go up to an alarming rate of 5 calls a day. (goodness a girl could dream! ha) No, but truly, I'm just taking the time to myself. To be a phone or text a way, is so much better then always being available at anyone's access. Hunt me down, search me out. Let me know that you care. My parent's do a wonderful job of showing me that, so does my friend. BUT, I knew they did already.